After choosing our bear shell we waited in line where an employee sits ready to stuff your bear as cuddly as you would like. We wanted him firm but still soft. Before filling him up we gave her the little device with Jonan’s heartbeat recorded in it. She put it down in his foot so anytime we squeeze it we will hear his heartbeat. Most kids love watching their bear be stuffed; they hand the bear over and trust the process. I, however, wanted to take this bear out of her hands and do it myself. I felt like an overbearing mama bear ready to rip the stuffing out of someone who messed with my baby bear. Strange, I know.
the ponderings of a mother
These are the ponderings of a mother in love with her children, both in my arms and in the grave. Some of these ponderings are quite emotional, some are funny, others contemplative and spiritual. All are sincere. May these writings bless you in many ways and bring you closer to the one, true God and Redeemer of all things.